This is the first of probably many posts following our journey to adoption. Growing our family feels like it has already been such a wild ride, I can only imagine what God has in store for our family. Before Caleb was born (he is now almost 2 1/2) we had a miscarriage and a chemical pregnancy. They found I had two MTHFR mutations (clotting issues) so when I was pregnant with Caleb I took daily injections of blood thinners. Caleb was born October 2013 and was, and is, absolutely perfect. When I became pregnant this past summer, I thought this child would have the same story. He or she would complete our family. I would take the medication, I would hold this child. This was not God's plan for us. Even after twice seeing a heartbeat, even after taking the medication, even after doing everything right I miscarried at 11 weeks. Devastating doesn't even begin to describe how I felt. While I wont elaborate on this post of the depth of emotion and pain we experienced, please understand that if you have been or are going through this loss I have been there, I know your pain, and I am here if you need companionship through the heartache.
So where did this leave us? We knew we didn't want Caleb to be an only child. I knew I couldn't handle the anxiety of another pregnancy. Adoption? Seemed a little crazy. So we took 6 months to pray, asked our friends to join us in that, and asked God to show us his plan. I was hoping for a neon sign, blinking lights, maybe some writing on the wall. That's not how he chose to show His plan for us. Still unsure of how to grow our family we went to an informational meeting with an adoption agency. Leaving feeling informed but still not definite, we decided to talk to some adoptive families we knew. After meeting with friends of ours who have two adopted children we knew this is was God's plan for us. Hearing their story, spending time with their family, and having our biggest questions answered had us leaving knowing that adoption was our next step in growing our family. I left feeling like they had been praying about this meeting and conversation before we ever walked in the door. We left excited, and God began revealing his plan to us. We joined a small group and one of the women we hadn't met before shared about being adopted herself. I know God placed her in our life with purpose. I have felt more and more that the reason we had to walk through such trying times is to bring us to this decision of adoption. This is the plan God has had for us all along and we have decided to take the steps forward in faith.
We can't afford adoption. There is no way we could afford adoption for the next many years. However we are in the understanding that if God has brought us to this point, He will provide the finances. It is going to be a crazy, exciting, scary, wonderful, and long. There will be ups and downs, and I am beyond grateful to have the most amazing community surrounding us through this process.
Hold on tight, we're on an adventure!
EDIT - January 2020 - The adoption journey has become a foster care journey - More on that in another post!
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